58. Jade
Jade Martin, 23, CA, USA
“I grew up a reserved and very shy little girl. I found more comfort in reading - and playing with dolls at home- than maintaining friendships. As soon as I was enrolled in school, I was outcasted by my peers and picked on for my appearance. The bullying intensified after getting an early period at 9 years old. I developed quickly and my weight (not at all what is considered ‘overweight’ now) was a target to girls, boys, doctors, and teachers. The bullying distorted my reality and how I saw myself. I had no concept of how I truly looked. Was I ugly or pretty? Overweight or just curvy?
I wanted to be accepted and desired. Despite physically growing faster than the other kids, I wasn’t ready to grow up. I thought life was like a Disney movie; I was a princess and all boys were gentlemen and princes like my Dad. But that wasn’t real life. I quickly figured out both boys and girls were hypersexual. So I found comfort, away from my peers, in online spaces where I was introduced to the idea that I could simply become a boy. I was around 11-12 and I started binding at age 12 with bandages.
When I got to High School, I planned to hide my chosen name and pronouns, but I was encouraged by staff and students to “come out.” I had also planned to go on testosterone when I moved out of my parents house because I didn’t think it was realistic for me to start hormones at that age until I was directed to the process by other students who had started testosterone. I strongly believe if I had not gone to that school, I would have grown out of the phase naturally, as it was meant to happen when I met my ex at age 20.
I was on testosterone from 2018 to 2021. After being groomed by and sexualized by older men online, I met my first real boyfriend (now ex). Meeting him had made me realize how miserable I was living in this coping mechanism. I saw the life that I wanted when I was a little girl in his eyes: marriage and children. It was possible. I wasn’t unloveable. So why was I hiding?
The process of detransition was embarrassing and it came with a lot of health issues. I was in and out of the hospital for complications. I had to have surgery. I was going through a lot… then that’s when I found out my ex had a double life and was cheating on me with another woman. My dream was crushed again, but at least now I’m healthy enough to achieve those dreams one day. God redirected my path and I thank him everyday. “
https://twitter.com/jaderants
https://www.instagram.com/prncssjadee/
http://twitch.com/atreuz
Jade Martin, 23, CA, USA
“I grew up a reserved and very shy little girl. I found more comfort in reading - and playing with dolls at home- than maintaining friendships. As soon as I was enrolled in school, I was outcasted by my peers and picked on for my appearance. The bullying intensified after getting an early period at 9 years old. I developed quickly and my weight (not at all what is considered ‘overweight’ now) was a target to girls, boys, doctors, and teachers. The bullying distorted my reality and how I saw myself. I had no concept of how I truly looked. Was I ugly or pretty? Overweight or just curvy?
I wanted to be accepted and desired. Despite physically growing faster than the other kids, I wasn’t ready to grow up. I thought life was like a Disney movie; I was a princess and all boys were gentlemen and princes like my Dad. But that wasn’t real life. I quickly figured out both boys and girls were hypersexual. So I found comfort, away from my peers, in online spaces where I was introduced to the idea that I could simply become a boy. I was around 11-12 and I started binding at age 12 with bandages.
When I got to High School, I planned to hide my chosen name and pronouns, but I was encouraged by staff and students to “come out.” I had also planned to go on testosterone when I moved out of my parents house because I didn’t think it was realistic for me to start hormones at that age until I was directed to the process by other students who had started testosterone. I strongly believe if I had not gone to that school, I would have grown out of the phase naturally, as it was meant to happen when I met my ex at age 20.
I was on testosterone from 2018 to 2021. After being groomed by and sexualized by older men online, I met my first real boyfriend (now ex). Meeting him had made me realize how miserable I was living in this coping mechanism. I saw the life that I wanted when I was a little girl in his eyes: marriage and children. It was possible. I wasn’t unloveable. So why was I hiding?
The process of detransition was embarrassing and it came with a lot of health issues. I was in and out of the hospital for complications. I had to have surgery. I was going through a lot… then that’s when I found out my ex had a double life and was cheating on me with another woman. My dream was crushed again, but at least now I’m healthy enough to achieve those dreams one day. God redirected my path and I thank him everyday. “
https://twitter.com/jaderants
https://www.instagram.com/prncssjadee/
http://twitch.com/atreuz
Jade Martin, 23, CA, USA
“I grew up a reserved and very shy little girl. I found more comfort in reading - and playing with dolls at home- than maintaining friendships. As soon as I was enrolled in school, I was outcasted by my peers and picked on for my appearance. The bullying intensified after getting an early period at 9 years old. I developed quickly and my weight (not at all what is considered ‘overweight’ now) was a target to girls, boys, doctors, and teachers. The bullying distorted my reality and how I saw myself. I had no concept of how I truly looked. Was I ugly or pretty? Overweight or just curvy?
I wanted to be accepted and desired. Despite physically growing faster than the other kids, I wasn’t ready to grow up. I thought life was like a Disney movie; I was a princess and all boys were gentlemen and princes like my Dad. But that wasn’t real life. I quickly figured out both boys and girls were hypersexual. So I found comfort, away from my peers, in online spaces where I was introduced to the idea that I could simply become a boy. I was around 11-12 and I started binding at age 12 with bandages.
When I got to High School, I planned to hide my chosen name and pronouns, but I was encouraged by staff and students to “come out.” I had also planned to go on testosterone when I moved out of my parents house because I didn’t think it was realistic for me to start hormones at that age until I was directed to the process by other students who had started testosterone. I strongly believe if I had not gone to that school, I would have grown out of the phase naturally, as it was meant to happen when I met my ex at age 20.
I was on testosterone from 2018 to 2021. After being groomed by and sexualized by older men online, I met my first real boyfriend (now ex). Meeting him had made me realize how miserable I was living in this coping mechanism. I saw the life that I wanted when I was a little girl in his eyes: marriage and children. It was possible. I wasn’t unloveable. So why was I hiding?
The process of detransition was embarrassing and it came with a lot of health issues. I was in and out of the hospital for complications. I had to have surgery. I was going through a lot… then that’s when I found out my ex had a double life and was cheating on me with another woman. My dream was crushed again, but at least now I’m healthy enough to achieve those dreams one day. God redirected my path and I thank him everyday. “
https://twitter.com/jaderants
https://www.instagram.com/prncssjadee/
http://twitch.com/atreuz